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Saturday, February 10
concentrated problems and dilute solutions
1:00 am if i can use one adjective to describe the past 2 weeks, it would be "concentrated". in chemistry, concentrated is defined as many particles of the same solute dissolved in water. yups, so parallel to this definition, many things occured over a short period of 2 weeks. been bombed with loads of problems and setbacks, emotionally and physically.
Not forgetting the workload that comes together with my 5.5 modules and BE
i could actually count the number of hrs i slept. an average of 4 hrs of sleep every night. people complain of sleepless night. i'd like to complain that i-frigging-want-to-sleep-but-no-time-and-even-if-i-could-i-cant-sleep-properly. would dream of presentation speech, questions from past year exams and have dreamy mini-exams in my sleep. a checklist appearing in my dreams prompting me what i need to do when i wake up. woke myself up 0.5hrs before my alarm (4.30am) rings. slight fever almost every 2 nights and a terrible ulcer for 2 weeks too. my tear ducts were on highly active mode too- activated more than 6 times as i recalled. 2 when in physical pain, the rest in hope that after crying, the emotional burden would be lighter. wanjee asked me whether i know when im gonna physically burn out. i say now. you say, go get some sleep. i say, no use cos my body is highly dependent on my mind. you say, dont worry so much. i say, i wish i could but it is nowhere being solved. some say, then how can you survive the next 1 year if you are already like this. i say, if there aren't any emotional baggages for me to carry, regardless the workload, i can still garner enough strength to survive. i just hate feeling helpless.
just jayne 1:00 am
0 people in the crowd heard my words
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