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credits

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pictures: ohhspontaneityy
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to my cousins jermaine, jansen and aison;
to my friends iona, lish, joel, sharmie-warmie, rach ang, amanda goh, grace(lina), grace heng
to my 4-girls-2-guys clique ting, adeline, zhen, poh and freedy
and ok.. my brother jonathan:


where'd you go? i miss you so. seems like it's been forever you've been gone...
- fort minor


pray that you guys are safe and sound and happy :)

i dunno how to react man.


i kinda expected myself to perform not as well as last sem but i still feel kinda disappointed when i learnt that i got 2 B+ for microecons and comms.


B+ sounds fine, but not when you have high expectations of yourself and when your grades de-proved.


but disappointment aside, jean msged me and alvin today to tell us that prof rani invited us to be her TAs for ltb next sem. i was contemplating for awhile cos this 1/2 credit module comes with more meetings than usual and i might not take up the modules that i wanna do next sem. thirdly, im not sure whether im really up to it. nothing against my TA, but it sure feels horrible that ur TA aint around for most meetings and makes last minute comments to ur project/presentations when everything is almost finalised. im afraid that i would be too caught up with my own work that i put ltb second in priority and neglect them...


*blank* just dunno how to respond.


i stayed at home again today cos i woke up at 1.30pm. was watching "the notebook" on hbo. the notebook is a story based on nicholas sparks' novel. i read that book a zillion times but dint watch the movie cos i was broke at that time. so was kinda happy that i caught it today. was crying like mad for an hour.. hmm im sentimental. i cried when i read the book and cried when watch the movies. well, i can only comfort myself that im only a normal female human.:)


gave another combined tuition again. i really dun like combined tuition cos i have to split my attention to 2 noisy girls. they were so distracted over some guys.. typical sec sch/jc thingy. they were trying to see whether they were fated to be with some guy by analysing theirs and their dream guys' names. you know, cancelling the letters that are common in both names.. girly stuff. then, i stopped to laugh at myself, at my past that how naive i was to believe in those stuff when i was younger. . gee


another reason why i think i cant give a combined tuition cos i always end up gossiping with them. girls in a room = random gossiping. pure entertainment yet pure distraction from tuition. i stayed back for another hour to girls' talk with them.. quite funny actually. hmm.. maybe i should charge them extra if they wan me to gossip them. then we can get our focus right.. muahahahhahahaa...

TUESDAY


met nicky on tues morning @ holland V again. imagine.. being in holland V twice in less than 12 hours. we were planning worship for yf on sat when bj called and asked us to have lunch at bishan. did i tell u, i hate travelling. holland V to bishan is.. further than far. but in the end, i went down to zion bishan to meet him, kenji and serene to watch some dvd. the AVA equipment system couldnt read the dvd didnt work, so we went to bj's house instead. we ended up playing this card game where we were supposed to execute people during the french revolution period. weird but very fun game..


so i met suzi, tim and jj for dinner @ marche suntec. jj was showing us some of his pics and a video when he and tim were in the navy. apparently, they had some "hell week" inwhich they werent allowed to sleep much for 5 days.. and bathe. Ewwwwwwww... jj were explicitly describing the details of the "hellweek" and suzi & i were.. gross out. i just had dinner, dude! the thought of navy guys peeing in their pants and without baths for 5 days aint very..appetising at all. so we were at marche until the waitress had to ask us to settle the bill as they were closing..


WEDNESDAY


i didnt go out. was bumming around at home. and it actually felt good.


i got to watch all 3 of my dvds.. in the afternoon. i think im a desperate housewives addict. i was so tempted to return the dvds and rent the remaining desperate housewives dvd from videoez in the afternoon. watch crash too.. but i didnt really get the plot. so i think im gonna watch it again.


met my mum for dinner at toa payoh central. told her that i might have CED... compulsive eating disorder. i couldnt stop eating when i was watching my dvd. let see what was on my menu then..


12pm -4pm
mushroom pasta..my lunch
strawberry yogurt
frosties with milk
water
loads of junk food


yupz.. and i was still hungry. im hungry now actually. my ben's and jerry's is callin out to me from the fridge.. my mum said that probably i suppressed all my stress from exams and now releasing it by eating alot. sounds logical. but i thought i eat alot when im stressed... hmmm


speaking of food.. i need to bake brownies before i lose my culinary skills forever... anyone wants? it is the tasty and ma-ma-licious brownie u would ever eat...............

okie.. i owe my og peeps these pictures.. so here you go... :)


ice cream!!! i shared it with darrell


tholmas, darrell, me and john


mabs and i


spastic darrell


ice cream buddy and me!


me, lulu, wenqi and mabs


wenqi and i.. normal version


wenqi and i.. spastic version


san-qi @ essential brews


wenqi serving her master.. eugene


tholmas, wenqi, darrell:) nice wedges

shopping with suzi and meiting! :)


ting and i :) at far east


suzi and i :) also at far east

SUNDAY

went to church in the morning and had lunch with the church peeps at sgoon gardens. i was like contemplating btw chicken rice and prawn mee... both are yummy food but in the end, the prawn mee won. could resist the soup and shelled prawns... satisfying man.


so had tennis "lessons" with chinwan and ed at springbloom condo. ed said that my strokes improved and i said "of cos lah, if not i've wasted 80 bucks on tennis clinic for nuts.." but still, i cant really play a proper game... haiz. so ed was teaching chinwan one-on-one while i was sitting at the bench waiting for my turn. the bag of prawn crackers was calling out to me.. beckoning me "jayne, jayne, eat me!!" so there you go, i was eating prawn crackers during my tennis lessons infront of chinwan instead of doing my punishment... chin wan was like " what the.....". when it was my turn, he ate my crackers in front of me. argh. irritating :P


after tennis, ed drove me to gardens again to return my dvd. i borrowed 2 more desperate housewives dvd and the movie "crash" (highly recommended by joe tee and bj). going to watch them later.. muaahhahaa. since i rented more than $10 worth of dvd, i was entitled to buy pints of Ben's and Jerry's at a discounted rate.. ah! temptation again! as always, i relented and bought 1 pint of chocolate chip cookie dough ice cream!!! muahahaha dvds + ben's and jerry's = whole load of fun... at nights :)


MONDAY


woke up at 1030am (yay!) and met suzi for gym in the afternoon. didnt run as long as usual cos miss-month-stomache-cramps suddenly decided to pay me a visit, if you know wad i mean. after gym, meiting came and looked for us at kopitiam and we went eyebrow threading together. haiz.. the price of beauty. suzi and i were like thinking of ways to tahan the pain but.... we still kept tearing while the lady was pulling off the hairs from our eye brows.. ouch.


den we decided to go orchard to get a pair of white shorts. i kinda convinced meiting that white shorts are super nice, so both of us bought the same white shorts.. except the difference in sizes :X but that was not it! ting bought another gorgeous green top and i bought another knee-length pants from the same shop. all in all, we spent a bomb there. after payment, suzi was like " i don't buy from these kinda shops in far east... they usually mark up the price by 2.5 times.... l" ting and i were like "thanks suzi ah....now then tell us." there you go, no more shopping for this week. haiz.


went to holland V to meet my og at night. i took 156 from my granny's place and i was lost. i miss the stop cos the windows were misty and all. so i landed somewhere at clementi/commonwealth area. took 106 from there to holland V in the end. argh, 1.5 hrs of bus rides are enough to make me feel sleepy. so we were at essential brews where i saw khalid. he was working there and it was funny to have a friend serving us. i felt so bad asking him to come over alot of time. khalid was nice to give us staff discount of 10%, countering the effect of service charge and gst on our bills. awww, khalid!! :) hahahha


we were forced to leave at 11 cos the place was closing. so jon sent darrell, lulu and i home while tholmas sent mabs home. lulu stays at balestier rd, so she was the first to alight. after sending her home, we were near thomson medical centre (the place that i was born.. high class hospital k! ) and were about to go toa payoh. jon was complaining that he hated the idea of going home at 11 plus and immediately darrell and i were like "supper!!! prata house!". so there you, we hecked the toa payoh flyover and went straight to the prata house. darrell called tholmas and thol said that he was at eunos sending mabs home, so he couldnt join us for prata. but after 15 mins at the prata house, thol and mabs appeared!! from eunos! they said that it was too early to go home too.. so we sat there and ate banana and paper prata while talking nonsense. darrell was not being himself cos he was distracted and nervous of...hahaha.. something. we were all teasing him non-stop since we were at essential brews. by a slip of a tongue, jon mentioned that the og guys (males) met up a while ago and they were rating all the girls in our og. i was like " what the... why??" and they said that it was because we girls rated them first during orientation camp.. i was like "did we??"..idiots.. i hate ratings. their ratings are biased!


so, although i did exercise for the past 3 days and am trying to have a healthy lifestyle, pratas are all i need to gain the lost calories back, with plenty to spare left.argh. why am i a food addict....


debit pratas
credit gain in calories


maybe i should set up an "allowance for unburn-able fats accounts". fats from the pratas will then not counter affect the results from exercising..


anyways, as promised, i will upload the photos later for the og peeps. too lazy to do it now. i need sleep!!!

im so going to find a cure for butt ache if i were a scientist....


i woke up at 12pm today (finally!!!!) and went to east coast park with edmund to cycle. we have been talking about cycling since last year but finally put our thoughts into actions. so, we cycled and cycled from ecp to changi safra chalet. THATS FAR. but the view of the sea there was great:) except for the not-very-clear sea, if you know what i mean.


after sitting there for half an hour, we decided to head back and return the bikes. by the 2nd minute, i was panting my guts out. i asked ed " issit me or it is very difficult to ride the bike suddenly??" and he agreed with the latter. must be some idiot and bo liao person who tried to mess with our bike's gear. i was like... shouting out for someone to save me from the misery.. riding up the slope.. i think i need to go gym more often, man.


i also learnt something: if there is alot of downslopes when u are cycling, be prepare for a load full of upslopes later when you return. it is logic but, i never thought of that when i was cycling... all the bumps on the road aint helping too; bumps + a very lousy bike seat = butt ache + bad posture pains..

but complaints aside, at least i exercised :)

so we went to parkway parade. i so miss that place. used to go there like almost every saturday with my family when i was a little girl who stayed in tampines. used to play with those kiddy cars outside and imagined that i owned one so that i could drive back home..


speaking of driving, i was telling ed that i wouldnt mind a volvo or nissan, or a lexus... or a chevolet (i cant spell).... in short, i wouldnt mind a car. i wish my uncle will give me a car if i pass my driving test on the first try. that would be my source of motivation to learn driving properly man. so i kept seeing alot of BMW and chevolets.. it must be a sign!!! my next car will be either a BMW or chevolet!!!!!... if i ever had cars.. sigh


then we went to thai express for dinner at siglap centre. i tell you, the tom yam soup was EXTRA spicy.. so hot that my block nose was cleared and i couldnt stop drinking water. but man, the soup was great and super-licious. better than the ones i had in phuket! :) probably because i was hungry.. hmm but i will rule that out.


went to watch "firewall" at j8. thought it was alright cos it was quite typical of harrison fort to be in such shows.. family in trouble, save the family, evil terrorists and bank robbers.. etc. but i cant wait for davinci code to be released. all my ideal actors/actresses (except tom hanks) are acting. Tom hanks wasnt what i exactly imagined as robert when i read the book. i thougt giles from buffy the vampire slayer was a much better choice. more intellectual looking than.. tom hanks. :P opps..


so, today was a day of pure relaxation. or so i hope. i kept feeling that exams are near. i think im totally nuts. smu has made me gone exams-and-projects immuned that i feel quite funny without them... but the good thing is.. i can get used to this!!! :D drinks and more drinks.. here i come!!!


ps: to all who owe me drinks -----> OWE drinks, REPAY DRINKS!! muahahahahhaaa! was looking at the walls of my hdb estate : O $ P $ ... hahahha loan sharks trying to save on paint even when they are chasing after bills..


ok..i should go get some sleep.


debit lost in calories and fats after cycling upslope for 30 mins
credit gain in butt ache.

went to school today to do some stuff for ltb. supposed to string up all the paper cranes the yg and spd kids folded during our final project execution 1 month ago. had to do photo frames for the taxi drivers who willingly volunteered to drive the spd kids to the centre for free then. but only jean turned up. at 1 plus pm, jean left and i was alone in a gsr.


funny how i can feel alittle lonely then. usually, i can preoccupy myself with project research or econs homework or mugging alone.. but jean and i agreed that we felt a wee bit lost after exams. hahaha.. sounds like some withdrawal syndrome from mugging... AHH.. i need bookss... *acts like a mugger drunkard*... gee jayne...! i'm nuts.


so i was eating subway while talking to suzi on the phone. talk talk talk until i was at gramaphone cd shop looking for a cd to buy. wanted to buy mandy moore's greatest hits. i love her voice. but don't have. was contemplating to buy fort minor.. but there was none also! haiz.. so i left to SOB for convoc meeting. i just realised i'm in a SUBCOMM for convoc.. yay! :) but then, i gotta find a way to juggle work, tuition, driving lessons and my life for the next 4 months. gonna have some convoc retreat on 5,6 & 7 may at some chalet do up the programmes.. i hate these kinda of meetings. had it once for YF comm 3 years back and by the time it was 4 am, i was dead already. i just hope it will be at some hotel instead of chalet.. hahaha nice toilets and clean beds... hahhaha :)


called meiting just now. she just finished her exams but she sounded real sick. said that she stayed up for almost 3 days with little sleep cos she was doing some recording thing for her exams. was supposed to make dinner for her and go over to her place later, but she called again and said that she might sleep till tmr morning instead. poor thing. even lasalle people have to "mug" so hard for exams... in a different way.


so, i am at home on a friday night. was supposed to go some salsa club to dance with my salsa friends but it was cancelled. decided to cook dinner again.. mushroom pasta. i miss cooking and baking; stress release activities. but the clean up is a headache man. anyway, while i was cooking, i saw one of the most beautiful sunset from my living room. the sky was half purple and half orange. it was like some sunset painting or something like that. it was gorgeous and.. brilliant. wow... stopped for a moment to absorb the scenery before cutting the mushrooms. a minute later, i turned and the sky was blue. was pretty thankful that i could see such a sight.


dunno what journal entry to end this entry. probably no adjusting journal entry is needed. :P

i just got my license!!!!!!!!! :)


hahaha.. ok.. just the PDL.. better than nothing right? driving license, driving license, here i come!!!! :)


anyways, lets talk about yesterday.


yesterday was a goggy day. i woke up with the reluctance to go to school for BE training. had to learn some new AVA and lighting equipment in the morning. but the bad throat was tempting me to sleep a little longer. finally, remembering me that i am in the convo comm for BE.. i pulled myself to bed.


i dragged my feet to the mrt train. kept dropping things on the way, cos i was very sleepy. was nearly knocked down by a taxi.. and that, WOKE ME UP.


so was at BE training and the personnels who were employed to train us did not know their stuff. there were countless negative demostrations. time waster.. i should be at home sleeping man. so the whole thing ended at 1 plus and i went to amanien street with Shah to have lunch. i just realised i ate wonton mee 3 out of 5 days!!!!!!!!!! no more wonton mee for me man. i had bbq chicken 3 times out of 5 days too.. hmm.. me and zhi cha food.


i went home to sleep but i ended up watching my dvd. watched "sleep over".. a silly teenage girl movie like "mean girls" to laugh at how bimbotic people can be. i think im mean. hmmm.. maybe i am as bimbotic as them man. cant remember what suzi calls these kinda of movie.." brainless flicks?" hahhaa


so i met up with chieh and shyuan for dinner at orchard. chieh has been smsing shyuan and i not be late for the past few days.. but who was late??? hmm, chieh???!! we went shopping and grocery shopping at paragon!! we were supposed to looking for jelly beans for chieh, but shyuan and i were like " this is so nice!!" and " this is the best thing on earth man...!". shyuan ended up being the one spending the most money. and i didnt buy anything!!! yay! i controlled myself!!! he he he....


later, i met suzi and yeefang to go zouk/phuture. the highlight of my semster man. dying to dance it all out.. saw chonghui at the entrance.. and many other smu people. effectively, yesterday was just smu people and army boys nite. NUS and NTU, they are all at home mugging.. awwww... :) for the first time, i saw chonghui and we didnt talk anything regarding school work or FA!!! i can get used to that!! :) yupz.. so we went zouk and ordered 2 tequilla pops and 2 margeritas... and suzi was high already.


rule number one : no tequilla for suzi


went phuture to dance but it was very.. packed and sleezy. the music was good but.. sleezy. army boys.. desperate. went to off to order more drinks. met tim there and he bought us a jug of lime volka and i ordered E-33 and 2 more tequillas for suzi and yeefang. suzi became almost a goner. and i was a wee bit googy.


rule number two: never drink too fast. and no tequilla for suzi also.


at that time, chris and his friend abel came and suzi was like " i know u, abel!.. you were from my og!" hmm.. right suzi.. u are drunk. everyone is from your og when u are drunk.


we went back to the dance floor again and dewei joined us. den suddenly, they were gone. i turned around and another group of guys were behind us. argh. yee fang was holding on to my waist but i felt another pair of hands above my waist. i turned and stared at the guy with a buzz off look..


rule number three : phuture is sleezy. period.


"alcohol is a dehydrating agent". that was what i told my tuition kids when i taught them organice chem. it is true, alright. 3 of us needed to use the toilet so we left phuture. when i was there, i talked to yeefang and realised that my voice is gone. smoke from the people around u + sore throat = even worse sore throat.


came out of the toilet and saw tim again. suzi and yeefang went on to zouk while i stayed outside the toilet to talk to tim. was getting worried for suzi cos she was upset and exceptionally high and the thought that she was going home alone was making me worried. was trying to ask vik and dewei to send her home.


then we went to zouk to look for her and yeefang. i tell you, there is a reason why jansen and jasmine go to zouk instead of phuture: the music is better. it is more fun. and most importantly, decent. they were playing all the retro songs that i like.. like "dying inside to hold you". although i was a mambo-movement idiot, singing along with the songs was good enough. saw the 2 of them and danced together for a while before tim left for phuture. i saw that suzi was frowning still. what she was going through really hit her bad. so there you go, in the middle of all the dancing, you would see 3 girls hugging together. in a good sense, i mean. trying to cheer each other up. den, more dancing. Junjie came and looked for us and dance with us for a while before i had to leave. it was 3 already and i was dead-meat. my curfew was 12 midnight. tim offered to send me home... and i was trying to gear myself up for an hour of nagging and scolding. though i was tired and beat, i needed this. i need to let my hair down (metaphorically, speaking) and go out with the girls. tim told me to just be smart by keeping quiet. me being me, it was hard. but thinking about it, i was in the wrong lah.. to be home late esp when they knew i was kinda sick.


in the lift, tim was like " nice earrings.. but there is only one left". argh!! another journal entry for the day. i must have lost it in mambo. my new rose earstuds!!


debit lost of ear-studs
credit gain in fun

gone are the sem 2 exams!! 4 months of freedom, i smell !! well... from studying at least..


but my freedom wasn't served very nicely.


it kinda funny. i thought people fall sick during exams , not after exams. i thought people have pimple outbreaks, not after exams.. well, i think there is something wrong with me. i am.. different?


debit flu and pimple outbreak;
credit freedom


i thought FA test was simple, provided i listen to chonghui. he told me to study some stuff and i told him it wun come out. dumb jayne, as usual. argh. usually, i will just kill myself and hit my head, asking myself why in the world did i not study the chapter!!! but then, i was so enthu about the exams being over and i simply.. hecked it.


so peiling, suzi, meiyan, jasmin, geri and i went to kenny rogers to have lunch. we were talking about cars and how seriously, there are so many rich punks in our school.. SLK and all.. haiz. and most of us are just dying to have a license.


so jasmin intro-ed us to watch this movie called "the art of seduction". its korean but is down-right funny to the core man. it is about when a seducer and a seductress meet - the battle of seduction. each one trying to outwit, outlast, and out-seduce each other. hahaa.. what did i learn first thing after my exams? the art of... relaxation :)


relaxation. i went orchard with suzi and meiyan after that to do alilttle.. shopping. bought a pair of rose ear-studs (that is so not me) and a pair of shades from tangs. those kinda of retro ones.. (that is so not me either). i dunno what went wrong with me but all i know, retail therapy sure works for me. meiyan's bf joined us. he looks like edison chen. (ah!!!!) so meiyan, being meiyan, felt hungry and went to have dinner while suzi and i went to do something bimbotic. we went for express manicure. i had french. so not me again. must be the exam stress that is making me do this out of the ordinary.. hm... when i was in the toilet, i accidently chipped abit of the nail polish..


debit nail-poilish depreciation expenses;
credit accumulated depreciation of nail-polish.


shall go for another one soon to capitalise my nails...darn, i sound like a bimbo.


met jianxiong for drinks at night. went to nydc first to have dinner den we went wala. i just realised that there is an eski bar there!!!!!! fancy wearing winter wear while drinking in a sub-zero bar. nice right? haha. so we ordered drinks and there was this waiter who was very.. quriky. hmm. not a very good choice of words. he is down-right trying to get suzi's attention. hahhaa.. when we left, jianxiong was like " suzi, say bye to him?" suzi, suzi.. *shakes head* haha :)


i woke up this morning with a low and sexy voice. the "art of seduction" is definitely getting into me. must be drinks. drinks + slight flu = very bad block nose and low voice.


debit drinks previous night without much water replenishing
credit Additional-low voice

i think it is time i got some real rest, seriously. but i can't. gotten enjoy while i can before i start work.

how? help.

i never fail to dream. i mean, everynight without fail, i will dream.


do you know that dreams make you even more tired? cos when u are dreaming, ur brain is actually still functioning as per normal like when u are awake?


that is why im so grouchy in the morning..


had a very weird dream.. but all in all.. i knew that i just vented out all my frustrations. the whole entire made me faced some of my greatest fear and all.. and all i knew was that i was crying or shouting or screaming in my dream. so depressing.


no wonder i had a bad sore throat in the morning when i woke up.. :(

im back from my sudden disappearing act...


just had microecons on thursday (my first paper). when i was walking to school, alot of biz/acct students were like "yeah!! 4mths of freedom!".. hmm. thanks man. it aint helping especially thinking that they are enjoying their butts of while i am supposed to study for 2 more papers.


going to have mpw in 1 1/2 hrs time and i cant study. i'm already dreamin of monday. either that, im totally distracted. alot of things on my mind lately and sometimes i really i hope that i never existed in the world.


argh. i think i should be david copperfield.. i should master the skill of disappearing. exams stress ain't good...

i dread going home cos there is nothing for me to eat at home.


not even biscults.


i just reached home and i realised.. i haven had my dinner. i refuse to cook instant noodles again. my hair is falling off...


so i opened up my fridge. then, i stopped complaining.


it is nice to have a bottle of bird's nest for supper.. yummy. satisfying.


this is what life should be all about.. well.. at least for now :)

i really cant handle group tuition. i cant handle two kids talking at the same time. too confusing and not productive.


anyway, i just reached back school to do a little mugging but im doubting the usefulness of it. im trying study FA and i realised.. i dunno what i dunno. nice.


1 more day before my first paper end.. and im already dreaming of post-exam activities. thinking of leaving singapore and relax and not think of anything and get my life back. hope to live the normal life that i always dream of. i think im stressed up. cos i'm getting depressed for no good reason. argh.. pmsing man.


maybe i should not raise my expectations too high. if im meant to get it, i will. if not, that's a blessing somehow. i should not make things more complicated than it seems to be.

AHHHH!!! AHHHH!!!!! AHHHH!!!!!


I'M SO GOING TO KILL MYSELF NOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! *SLAMS DOOR, TABLE* *JUMPS AROUND LIKE A MAD WOMAN IN THE LIBRARY*


boon chong called me and asked me whether i confirm working with epc. and i said ya. den i told him "i tot that time u called me to confirm it?" and he said " issit? i cant remember.. too much work recently"


AHHHHHHH!!! AHHHHHH!!! AHHHHHH!


I GAVE UP MY UBS INTERNSHIP FOR NOTHING!!! I JUST WANNA KILL MYSELF NOW!!!!!!!!!!!

yepz.. today is monday.

i sound like some primary school teacher, reminding her kids what day it is.. "class, today is monday. repeat after me... MONDAY!"

okie.. im just too bored.yes. i'm in the library now.. as usual. trying to mug something called FINANCIAL ACCOUNTING.. yes rigan. u will be glad to know that one of ur students is studying ur favorite subject.

you know, all the while i wanted to do a double major on econs and accounting. but after taking ACCT 101, im thinking twice. it is not that the subject is boring, just that it is not interesting enough and i really dun grab the concepts well and fast enough. well, i shall accrue that thought first and debit FA-knowledge receivables for my exams now..

okie, the weekend was pretty fine. went home last nite at 10.30 to watch "the gospel of judas" on national geographic. i must say, i dunno how to react to such a discovery. the "gospel" proclaimed that judas was a hero; he was asked by Jesus to betray him intentionally so that he will get the riches in inheritance from heaven. seriously, that sounds like.. not an apostle. Jesus do not need to ask someone to betray him. anyone can betray him especially so when alot of Jews weren't happy with him.

all in all, there were alot of inconsistencies from the "gospel of judas". indeed, there will be alot of false prophets and the church of Christ will fall during the end of ages. but that is when, He will come to earth the 2nd time.

today is saturday.


funny how time passes so quickly. tmr is sunday, and lo and behold! monday will come sooner than u expect it.


so i mentioned about being random yesterday and told you about my microecons prof. did i mentioned that he is very weird? fancy a 35years old guy exclaiming to us how he managed to get free pair of tix to watch wu yue tian live in concert and how great it felt to see other people paying $98 dollars per tix. the amusing part is that i cant believe that wu yue tian has a 35 year old fan. no offense but it is really amusing to know that your professor is crazy over a chinese boy band. hahahahaha!


yes. im still mugging. but im not exactly concentrating. im hallucinating. so tired now. slept at 4.30am cos i was watching "shakespeare in love". the movie is not bad. very nice plot i must say, making william shakespeare trapped in the tragedy of his own work- romeo and juliet. so there many R&J quotes mentioned in the movie. i took R&J as my lit text in sec4 and i think im the only person who bothered to remember quotes from the book. hmm.. maybe just 1 quote. i dunno why this quote caught my eye totally and i effortlessly managed to memorised it.


O Romeo, Romeo!
Wherefore art thou Romeo?
Deny thy father; refuse thy name;
but if thou will not,
be but sworn my love
and i will no longer be a Capulet.


i think that is the most beautiful quote ever written by Shakespeare. but if u read in context, it is the dumbest. it's beautiful because it shows the extent in which a female will go to devote and submit to her man. at the same time, it is the dumbest cos juliet is not even 14 yrs old and she just met romeo for less than an hour. i mean serious, even speed-dating wun spur you to get married within the next 1 hr.


then, while i was watching the dvd, it was set in elizabethian times and there were many poets and artiste around writting for a living. it makes me wonder whether their society then was love-sick to the point everyone is writting about love, love, and more love. how melocholic and depressing.


okie. its almost 7 pm and i must finish this chapter before i go...


O Mugging, Mugging!
Why are you called Mugging??
Deny your books; refuse the exams;
but if you will not
swear that i will get Straight As..
and i will no longer be a Quek.

i have advanced... im not in the library


i'm in the cca room.. and supposedly mugging...

i'm reading mpw on organisational behavior and i'm seriously falling asleep.... its too dry. either that, or im really very sian of mugging now. i need a break. i wanna watch my dvd.


how coincidental, my new blogskin is named "shakespear's in love". i have that Shakespear in love dvd waiting for me to watch it back at home and im supposed to return it tmr at videoEZ.. ah.. im gonna watch a lovey-dovey show.. gonna laugh and cry over the tragedy of it all.


so, today we ( peiling, suzi, tim, junjie and i) went to meet prof yip over some microecons stuff. 2 hrs consultation passed real fast cos we were talking nonsense and asking him about his dating/love life. prof yip is pretty random; he was teaching us game theory and oligopoly and out of no where, he asked " do you want to listen to some music??" and we were like... "err... ok". and he started playing jazz. den peiling was falling asleep so she asked prof yip to play something faster. in the end, he played "wu yue tian" songs.. and started commenting how sad the song was. to most random thing he did was to ask us to listen to one last wu yue tian song before we left. omg!


it suddenly occured to me that today is fri. my exam is gonna be over in 11 days time. i cant wait. btw.. anyone wanna go on a cruise? im desperate to get out of singapore.


ok.. its back to mugging again..sigh.

ah! finally!!!!


my new blog skin.. nice right? i think so too.. hahaha


thanks, my dear suzi!! u are a html genius!!! :)



okie.. back to mugging..

rain rain go away
come again tmr...



its a rainy day today. im snuggling under my jacket in the library and im feeling very warm, comfy and sleepy.


UBS just called me. and asked me whether im still looking for an internship with them. SHITE. i shouldn't give a reply to epc so soon. i want to work at UBS!!!!!! wasted. really wasted.


anyway, when i reached the library to do my usual mugging, i had a rash on my legs. it was gross. looks like mosquito bites.. slightly larger. i dunno why i had a rash all of the sudden. must be the bed bugs.. hahaha. but i dun think so leh. the worst thing was that i'm wearing a skirt now! so it looked quite conspicous earlier when the bites were all red and.... rashy.


watched "how to lose a guy in 10 days" last nite till 3 plus am. i think im mad. i have this routine recently to go home at 12 am.. bathe.. and watch some dvd despite being tired. having an average 6 hours sleep which is totally not enough to me. anyway, the movie was nice. i spent half the time admiring the actress' (who looks like drew barrymore) hair, gown, complexion....etc. and she got to kiss a hot hunk. hahaha i sound desperate. but nvm.


the ultimate qn: can u really make someone fall in love in just 10 days? and how do you know whether you are really in love?


like what master said before, love is an intense word. i guess after all these years, i really do not know what love really means. but i think i can safely say for now, that if i would be married, i would have really love the person then.


ah.. i dunno what i'm talking about. just trying to kill time cos i cant study now..argh.


ps: im gonna change my blog skin soon.. finally

i'm very stoned now.


left school at 2.30 am last night cos i was mugging. was at my pinnacle of mugging at 11.30pm.. so i didnt wanna waste it. shit. i sound like a pure mugger.


so i was at school then. at 1.30 am.. this norwagian guy came by and asked us:


guy: hi, are u people university students?
us: yeah?
guy: oh, u are studying?
us: *duh!!!* politely yes

guy went about talking nonsense about why education is important.. etc.. comparing education in singapore, thailand, malaysia.. telling us that he has a masters in business.. trying to figure out whether he knew microecons by looking at my notes.


all in all, his breath stinks. he has been drinking. and i was " can u see that we aren't really interested in talking to you???". but he went on and on for the next 20mins.. by then i was nearly falling asleep. fancy a norwagian tourist is trying to educate me on education.


by the time he left, it was 2 am. time waster. so i studied for another half an hour and i realised, i need to sleep man. so tim offered to drive me home. thanks tim! :)


so i reached home. and bathed. and realised that my hair was wet. so i decided to whip out my DESPERATE HOUSEWIVES dvd and watch while letting my hair dry. episode after epidsode... and lo and behold! it was 6 am!!!! shite.. and i was supposed to be in school at 11.30am.


so i ran to my room and tried to sleep. but i couldnt. i had a bad tummy ache.... in the end, i slept at 6.30 and woke up at 10am by my alarm. i thought, ah.. sleep for another half an hour. but no, fate disallowed me to do so. i visited the toilet for the next 1 hr again.. must be the bad mocha-flavored milk i drank while watching desperate housewives.


the ironic thing was yesterday, i complained to james that i hate constipation. today, i hate diahorrea. (i cant spell).


whoopie.

i think my blog entries are depressing. but some people like jermaine find them hilarious. hmm.. weird.


anyway, today is another boring day in which i have successfully morphed to a mugger. i have a fixed place where i study in the library. serious. im a mugger.



let's talk on why i think i'm a mugger. thanks to james. so, both of us decided to have dinner at coffee club opposite sess. i was still bitching about the dumbest interview i had on fri to him. and he interrupted me a few times.. asking me what i wanna eat.. whether i wanna choco fondue.. whether i wanted a spoon to finish up the remaining melted choc.. if u wan to have choco fondue... ladies and gentlemen, please go to MAX BRENNER'S @ the esplanade. it is better than fullerton's choco buffet and has gay waiters (james' description of max b)



anyway, we left coffee club at around 10 and he was sweet enough to walk me to the mrt. while we were on the way, he asked me who are the muggers in our quek/seow/chang family. i evaluated carefully, and i think im a chao-mugger. im the only idiot in the family who studied every sunday for As since i stepped down from council. so depressing. and i thought my life was interesting... :(



hence, after understanding that my life is seriously boring, i came up with a plan. i shall learn tennis. i shall learn salsa. i shall be in some studentcouncil thing. i shall not be a mugger.



i shall learn tennis: i did take up lessons.. but im still bad at it. my strokes are inconsistent and i can hardly play a proper game. talk about trying to play at competitions in 2 years time.. dream on, jayne!



i shall learn salsa: i'm learning it now. it is fun.. but i cant dance. hmmm more like i feel quite uncomfy dancing an almost-sensual dance with someone whom i don't really know. if you don't know, salsa is actually "naval dancin".. hmm so it feels kinda awkward like dancing exceptionally close to a stranger.. and doing all those wrapping-your-hands-around-your-body styling actions.. hahhaa:P so my dear partner, i gotta know u better, dude. :)



i shall be in some student council thing: SA is horrible, so it is out of the question . and projects are enough to make me go mad. so i think i can "x" this part out.



i shall not be a mugger: tell me how not to??!!!!! SMU = super-mugger-university.



i was so stressed that when i was holding my tennis racquet just now, Enning was like "whoa, jayne! are you that stressed?" and i was like " hitting people on their heads with this is therapeutic". like hitting golf balls.



why am i so stressed? maybe im worrying too much. thinking too much sad, depressing stuff. thinking of worst-case senarios.. james said that i have little faith in God.



i cant help but to agree with him.

i had a bad day on friday.


stayed up over at James', my cousin-cum-fa project mate, to do up the FA report. i wanna kill zf. really kill him. all of us couldnt understand a singe thing that he did. for the report. at 10 am, he said he needs to go.. home to sleep. and i wanna tell him, i need to sleep too... and crap was what he gave us for the report..


i stayed overnight in school and sunday night.. and thursday nite for FA.. i just realised i haf less than 20 hrs of sleep this week..


anyway.. so i reached home at 2 pm on fri and got prepared for an internship interview. and guess what, i got reprimanded during the interview for "not doing your homework". screw that person cos i didn't apply for that stupid post as an intern and i don't know how in the big fat world my resume landed on his desk. just praying that i won't get it. i hate to work with such snobbish, i-think-citibank-is-the-best-place-to-work-at-cos-i-earn-big-bucks-and-it-looks-good-on-my-resume idiots.


i walked out of the interview.. called my mum.. and i was so pissed that i cried when talking to her. probably because the interview went bad and i got scolded for no reason and i was drop-dead tired. then, i realised that my mascara was coming off. so i controled my tears.


then, it was raining cats and dogs. although i had my brolly with me, it didn't make any difference. i was wet from waist down cos it was raining so heavily like a typhoon. walked back to school to look for meiyan and gang and pass a stats cd to tim ( my new-found-friend in microecons) and i started bitching about the interviewer to peiling.


so i met tim and passed him the cd. he offered to send me to my tuition kid's place despite having a meeting later in school. but we ended up being lost for 1 hr .. and ended up at punggol instead of yio chu kang. rule number one: never try to protect a guy's ego. if you think he is going a wrong way, speak up. hahahaha.. sorry tim!! :) so we talked abt our A level's results and he said that his GP was very bad. i told him that mine was worse but he didn't buy it. so we bet. the loser treat the other person to coffee. not bad, jayne. a free ride and free coffee:)


so, i was giving tuition to 2 of my kiddos. it is chaotic to give a combined tuition to 2 girls who are good friends. my, they can't stop laughing and talking. so most of the time.. we talked nonsense. it's quite hard to halve your attention to 2 people at the same time when giving tuition. that's the reason why i didnt want to give group tuition at the beginning. but i'm still giving them group tuition for the next 2 weeks. they said that they didnt want me to travel to and fro during my study and exam week. aren't they sweet??!!!


all in all... i reached home at 11 and slept at 1 plus.. i was awake for 40 hrs.. i can't believe i survived that.

jayne, 21
smu econs
needs a reboot in her life.
needs to eat and exercise more.
waiting on Him