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is it me or coincidence seems to like me a whole lot.

i have been getting nothing but whizzes of murphy's law occuring and reoccuring in my life for the entire week.

let's just see. last night(thursday night) i reached home at around 12 and started reading my IE textbook to do the hw which was due today at 5pm. however, at 3 am.. my brain shut down and i was dead beat .. and i didnt start the hw. so i set my alarm t 6.30am and another at 7am to wake myself up to do the hw or at least be punctual for my last FT class for the sem. i didnt hear the 1st alarm went off and i woke up at 7.15am.. which is the earliest i've woken up since... last week.

i had adequate time to iron my formal clothes.. but no, something has to mess my life and somehow, my shirt couldnt not be ironed straight. no matter how hard i tried, it still look like a mess and i was late for class.

then i realised during FT class that i had to send a soft copy of my birth cert and education cert to SIA for application and i forgot to bring it to school. but i had to do my IE hw by 5pm and send the application before office hours end.

i was dead meat to the core corecore... i rushed to the bank to make a transaction.. finished my application after lesson, then met ryandall and nat for ctv meeting.. then did IE homework with mengchoon and ran to-and-fro SESS and library to seek help for the hw.by the time everything ended, it was 5pm. the only reward, a$10 voucher from kino by my IE prof, as promised.

i realised that smu is not strategically located to hail a cab. so i called for one and i was on my way home at 5.30pm. it was my 5th time on the cab since sunday..yeps im broke and no cast can mend it (cold joke..eh). reached home at 5.45pm and tried to scan my cert into my bro's laptop. but he didn't pick up the phone and i couldnt access his laptop. i frantically search for the installation disc for the scanner/printer and after a tormenting 15 minutes, i managed to find it.

so the installation began.... and it failed. WTC!!! MURPHY SHOULD GET KILLED TO HAVE SOME KIND OF LAW. i panicked and tried again. the installation took 20 minutes and i was dead.. 6.20pm and i have not replied them yet. i've got 10 more min before i kiss my potential internship goodbye and goodnight.. forever. so i got the cert scanned but murphy just loves me.

i tried to attached the files but it took a zillion years to attach one file. and i realised, the stupid scan certs were at least 7mb each. DUMB! so i had to change the format from jpeg to gif and send it out.. and I WAS LATE.

LATE FOR MY APPLICATION. LATE FOR A MOVIE-CUM-BIRTHDAY CELEBRATION FOR MARVIN AT J8. i think kenji would love to kill me now. it was suppose to be another surpise movie thing for marvin but i was late. i quickly left home and decided to take a bus down to bishan. but NO, murphy wants to marry me. the main road next to my estate was having its first jam since singapore gained independence. WHATS WRONG WITH EVERYTHING. the vehicles were moving at the speed of 1mm per min or something..

so i decided to walk to the mrt station from the busstop. when i was 5 minutes away from the mrt, murphy decided to swear his love for me, leaving me no choice but to relent.

** PS: my feet were full of blisters since wednesday. blisters on my toes, under my toes and at the joints of my toes. in short, my feet are red and look like i have leprosy or something.

so my slippers broke. my lovely yellow slippers i bought from phuket 1.5 years back broke. i was along a pathway next to a mainroad and i can honestly tell you i never felt so popular before. all the passerbys, all the drivers were staring at me.. some stupid aunty was being unsympathetic and scoffed at me while she walked pass. *breathe jayne.. breathe...*.

heck it. i took off the scandles and walked BAREFOOTED (with zillions of blisters on both feet) on the pavement and ROAD with puddles of disgusting bacteria infested water. and walked to toa payoh hdb hub with more people staring at me. i gracefully walked into a shoeshop and the sales lady, who looked like her pet dog died, started laughing as if mr bean was dancing infront of her.

my life is miserable. why am i suffer so much for murphy. but the good thing was, she was kind enough to help me dispose my dearly beloved slippers. and FINALLY made my way to j8... and watch TMNT and i wonder why i paid 9.50 to watch a i-cant-find-any-adjectives-to-describe-how-stupid-i-am movie.

nevermind. i headed back school for starry starry night and ryandall was finally behaving like a man and decided to treat us a round of beer. ok, ryandall is nice and not whiney for once.

Thank God my day ended decently. thank you...

a bad day in short.

had IE presentation today. we didnt present during the class time as there wasnt enough time, so my prof decided to let us present in another location after class. but after IE lesson, i supposed to have intro psych lesson. and today, im supposed to skip half of intro psych to go for half of MA class i missed on tuesday. so by the time my presentation ended, class has progressed for 1 hr and i had to make a decision to go Intro psych or MA class. either class, i will get back my mid term results.

so i decided to go for MA class. my midterms was a goner and i wasnt too happy about it. but thank God for my MA prof who was so happy that i made it for class and greeted me with so much enthus "Oh Jayne, you are here! i have your paper..." and she is so encouraging.. Gosh i wanna study for MA.

my midterms for psych was also a goner.. it was gone beyond gone. but therein lies intrinsic motivation : if i wanna be a doctor, i'd better get used to studying intro psych. and it worked. for once, i didnt complained while reading the textbook and i actually wanna do well.

then i checked my email and was shocked to see an email titled " Red Packets" from my IE prof. i thought she wanted to collect the angbao she gave to me before CNY for some reason. but NO. she wanted to give everyone who turned up for the extended IE lessons as a form of appreciation! 2nd Angbao from the IE prof.. now i dont care how much she is giving this time, but all i know.. i wana study IE too.. ( in psych, this is called cognitive dissonace.. wiki it if you dont know..)

so it is a bad day, but im doing something about it... :)

my day started at 7.15am when my alarm was screaming hysterically. i woke up and switched it off and went back to sleep, thinking that i will wake up ten minutes later.

i woke up and it was 10.30am. i missed my morning class. so i called chinwan to give him a morning call for our noon class and went back to sleep.

i woke up and it was 12.30pm. i missed my noon class. so i msg chinwan to ask him when the class-break was. he said, " no break, just come into class", thinking that i was on my way to school and i replied " i am still at home"

took a cab down to school and met bj for lunch. he is one mad fella who proclaims that he is gay and now wants to turn into a monk. cant make up his sexual orientation.. tsk tsk. now, he has gay too much till he is catching a flu.. i wonder where he caught it from..

chinwan msged me and passed me a chocolate crossiant.. he is very very nice! he told me he was first to be in class and bought this for me for breakfast.. *touched* ok, i will give him more morning calls...

tried to study but things started flooding my mind, like how in the world am i gonna pass my law and econs exams. i gave up for a while and went to read my intro psych textbook.

had dinner at the dim sum place @ sunshine plaza again. i think im addicted to the food there. 3 weeks in the roll. and i think im growing fat by the amount im eating. my aunt, who firmly believes i am too skinny, just told me that i have fattened up quite abit on sunday. depression, i tell you. and when i get depressed, i eat more. so it isnt helping.

met tholmas on the way back to the lib and he was REALLY NICE to teach me how to park. in the school carpark. i was supposed to be at IE meeting within 15 min but i decided to acquire this lifelong skill instead. he is darn funny -- we walking to a stairway leading to the carpark and i told him that i didn't know such a stairway existed. and he said " you're not scared i lead you to some ulu place and then...." and i replied " im sure that you dont have such bad taste ".

i just whammed my ego down.

so we drove around the carpark and he told me where the different exits lead to. and he taught me how to park with no cars on both sides of a lot but a pillar, a pillar with 1 car on the other side of the lot and 2 cars on both sides of the lot. he is one of the few people who really trust me. *double touched* i am one step closer to drive on my own...if i have a car.

Tholmas is a great guy as you can see.. better than my cousin ...any takers?

yes, i have to push myself here. the last leg of the semester. i need to start studying. 5 crazy papers.. yeps, i have to study, jayne. just think of what you will be doing 1 month from now....



today is another whacky day. met joe tee and eliz for brunch at delifrance opp SIS. the salad tasted horrible the soup was too salty. but nevertheless, it was great brunch cos of the company. eliz was doing her IS project with adobe photoshop and it struck me that im handicapped when it comes to photoshop. ok.. i shall pick it up during the hols...



oh, eliz gave me a cute chick that she bought from spotlight. then, the whole day became a "tongue-in-chick" day


"look MUM, this is what i wanna be when i grow up!! "

"chicken-sandwiched???"

then, i went to studio and terence and daryl were all so fancinated over the chick. but they were mean... mean mean downright mean. they wrote this on a piece of paper with my chick on it..

" Jayne's Chick,

but it should not be read as

Jayne is a Chick"

so i slacked on the sofa in studio, doing up the presentation slides for IE.. and when i stood up, wanlyn screamed. it was at this moment, i felt like a member of the Klumps family.

wanlyn : " JAYNE!!!! WHAT DID U DO TO THAT CHICK??!!!!!!! ITS FLATTENED!"

oops. i didnt know i sat on it.. my poor chick. so wanlyn gently lift the pancaked chick and tried to puff it up. she kinda did a great job though. but the chick looked a wee-bit unproportionate. like a missing wing...

idiots. then, met chonghui for a chillout session at ice cold's. it is funny how people can be so passionate over being a trader or financial analysts and earn big bucks and.. it doesnt interest me at all. whats wrong with me. and chonghui said that math for econs eg partial differentiation is interesting. he is downright sick. maybe he and i should switch course..

then, went to granny's place for dinner like after.....2 or 3 weeks? i miss homecooked food. i really do. sometimes i wonder how i manage to survive eating out almost everyday for every meal since sec2.. if i had the money, i'd probably ate at all the restaurants in singapore twice already!

then met tholmas and darrell for ice cream at island creamery to celebrate thol's birthday. boy, the boys are old.. they are 23 this year man.. how time flies when we were celebrating their 21st birthdays 2 years back. darrell wasn't in a good mood for the first time, and he was like "what the crap" here and there until he ate the super-duper sinful MUDPIE. see, chocolate is a happy food... and then he was back to "what the crap" mode. called my "beloved" cousin, james (whom i am at the brim of disowning him...) as he was nearby. he joined us for a while and asked me to vet his resume...which the only work experience he has is Army. but my cousin is still a capable guy ( why am i still supporting him when he forgets about me...?!!!!). any takers? oh well...

someone really needs to teach me how to park properly. like, SERIOUSLY.

anyway, had a weird week. im supposed to be busy rushing my work but im just too tired to do them. still, i felt stressed. just finished my IE report. now left the presentation.. can't hardly wait.

anyway, i think it is time to get back my life. i realised my life revolves around SMU, SMUBE and nothing else. like what jemsoh warned me, BE is a social hazard to one's life. like when im have nothing to do in school, i feel absolutely empty, stripped away and blank. henceforth, im feeling poetic again..

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moving on

There is a time for us to move on
You can’t really keep listening to the same song
Over and over again all day long

There is a time for us to move on
Even though we are stuck at the same problem
There are solutions that we can fathom

There is a time for us to move on
Just like cars on expressways caught in a huge jam
after they have fixed the green lamp

There is a time for us to move on
As much as we want to dwell on the fact
that the situation is unfair to us just yet

There is a time for us to move on
While we allow envy to set into our heart
Questioning why letting go is so hard

There is a time for us to move on
There are reasons why we are in this trial
We will find out sometime along life’s isle

There is a time for us to move on
And the path is laid with steps for us to take
Take one last look at the past and then forsake

This is the time for us to move on
Grab your bags and take the steps forward
at the junction, don’t waste the green man’s effort.

i just watched the last episode of hana yori dango 2! :) ok, coming from a drama series addict, this season was great! although like the plot is somewhat similar to the taiwanese version season 1, but the actors and actresses were much much better! ok, credits.. THANK YOU FANGWEI!!!! i love you for your harddisk and car! :P

ok.. time to go for my 2nd FT class of the day....

EXCITED !!!!! really excited.

excited about the end of the semster. excited about whether i get my internship with SIA. excited about graduation. excited about holidays. excited about exchange next jan. excited about studying medicine in 4 years time.

i have no idea what went into me but i have seriously no form of intrinsic motivation to study now. its bad, i know. but i just wanna clear my projects and sleep.

i think my life just underwent a huge turn.. for the better now. im actually feeling happy for no particular reason. and that's a good start :)

POP! goes my heart...

jermaine quek, if u are reading this, when is your exam starting?

ok, just had a move marathon (not really). i.e. watched 2 movies in 2 days.

yesterday, met kc and jas for the 17 magazine movie treat for $5. they had a pre-event thing and we had to decorate a note book using arty stuff and stickers. ok, you put 3 non-arty-farty girls together and you have not a bad piece of art work. :) and we had a free make-over and photo taking thingy too! waiting for jas to send the picture before uploading them here. don't know whether it will appear on the next magazine issue.. muahahahhaa

anyway, we watched music and lyrics and it was great. love the show, love the Brit. the seats allocated to us were crap - 2-1 seating. so jas and i decided to lift the handle in between us and 3 of us squeezed comfortably in 2 seats. :) so romantic! not. a romantic movie for 3 single girls.. sigh..

so met meiting,ruizhen and freedy for dinner at sakae sushi marina square. it was freedy birthday celebration but some how, everyone hates freedy. kept insulting him because he kept picking on me. but we didn't eat much so we went to max brenners to chill out. then we were talking about marriage. double sigh. what a topic. everyone is either attached or going to be but i... am no where close.

DISCLAIMER: I AM NOT DESPERATE

contd.. but something encouraging (or not..) was that everyone predicted that i will get married first. to a eurasian. no idea why but we made a pact: if i were to get married first to a eurasian, ruizhen and meiting need not give me angbao on my wedding. see, the benefits i wouldn't mind forgoing just not to be left on the shelf... haha boy oh boy, i miss my clique.

today, went to watch " Der rote Kakado" ( the red cockadoo in german) for free with jas at cineleisure. its arty. its farty. its full of horny actor and actresses. but not as good as Hula Girls though. its about the events happening months before the berlin wall was built in 1961 to separate east and west germany... not bad for a history show though :)

ok, quit blogging and back to mugging

Friday night

its the end of week 11 and i still have midterms. like 2 of them and im about to go bonkas already. maybe they should start naming the quizes correctly - like 3/4term test instead of midterms. blah

anyway, its like 12.35am now and im still at the studio. trying to study for my intro psych test later at 2pm. and i have 80 more pages to torment through. do you know how terrible the feeling is? like it takes at least 4 hrs to clear 1 chapter of 40 odd pages. and i have 13 hrs more. considering that i have to bathe and catch some sleep and travel to and fro..

Saturday

i couldnt wake up to study this morning. felt so tired from the extremely late nights i have recently. woke up with a bad throat and i think i am sick again.

anyway, the test was bad bad bad. again, i hope to be the above average in class. not much expectations judging from last minute studying and my incompetency in memorising. its time to study for MA quiz but... im packed for the weekend again.

met shyuan, chieh and junhui for dinner at lor 8. then we had this random thought to go clubbing at around 10pm. but judging from the fact that we have to go home to change clothes and my lack of energy, we shoved that idea and went to liquid kitchen to chill out instead.

liquid kitchen was bad. full stop. bad service, bad drinks and bad luck (ok, i don't believe in luck..) bad service : i ordered a mojito and a cup of warm water (for junhui) and it took them 45 mins and 4 reminders to get my orders served. bad drinks: no mint leaves for my mojito. so they sub it with mint syrup and it tasted like.. toothpaste with mint. moreover, where was my stick of raw sugar that comes with it???? bad luck: this is the 4th time in 4 weeks i spilt and broke my glass of drinks on myself.. since CNY day 3. and they didnt replace me with a complimentary drink despite them forgetting my orders 4 times.

oh well, not my day. just hope tmr is a better one.. onwards to a movie special with jas and kc tmr and another free movie on monday evening!!! :) ok, going to cathay cineleisure 2 days in a row is somehow motivating now..

ok, here's a question. dont peep at the answer


water lilies double in area every 24hrs. on the first day of summer, there is one water lily on a lake. it taes 60 days for the lake to become covered with water lilies.

on what day is the lake half covered???

to prevent you from peeping the answer, i'll shall tell u some stuff on my day (Which is boring and gives u time to think of the answer) i just got rejected from the flying dutchman company which totally diss-ed me off and wasted my time. but nevermind. find another one.

and im dead meat for intro psychology. i have a midterm on saturday and i have 300 more gruely pages to read, on top of a career essay due on fri and meetings on friday and MA midterms next tuesday.



ok, ready for the answer??














answer: 59 days.. how long did u take to get this?

a song.. a tribute to BE

BE, i'm so into you
you always got something
THAT I HAVE TO DO!!!!

BE, you killed my life around
the earth is moving
but im stuck in studio's ground

everytime you look at me
my heart is pumping (like mad) but i pretend not to see

you drive me crazy
i just can't sleep
i'm not excited
yet i went too deep

ohhh crazy..
and it gives me frights
baby thinking of you
gives me schizophrenia all night

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ok, had a sinful weekend.

no, you sick people. i ate a zillion fattening stuff and didnt work much. had meetings that were totally not related to school work. and my school work is seriously piling up. and im freaking out.

anyway, terence, daryl, hailong and i had a meeting with the previous excos and the founders of BE. i must say, thank God for them. thank God for fantastic seniors, full of aspirations yet realistic. they are probably the only few people who understands 5 words called "progessing at a healthy speed". in EVERY ASPECT of life, there is a healthy speed level to progress; just because other corporations or other people are selling a product doesn't justify us launching every drop of energy into selling that same product. we have to think, whether it is sustainable, whether in the long run the same speed can be maintained, whether we are hurting ourselves or innocent parties in the process. in short, we arent the only parties affected by our decisions.


oh well, forget about work for now. anyway, we went to have dinner at this malay restaurant at Rendezvous hotel level 2 and it was fantastic. the only thing was it was darn expensive. but seriously, it was good.. and im thinking of eating it right now. then on sunday night, we went to watch symphonia's performance at the singapore conference hall near lao pa sa. and there, terence was blatently flirting with a girl ( or is it vice versa??) on front of us, diminishing our existance. it was like free show on Promiscuousity instead of a band performance and my mouth was like... opened and i thought i was the only one. then, when terence finally gave in to that girl to walk her to her seat, we all turned to each other and said "WAHLAU".

so after the concert, we went to laupasa for supper. we ordered 50 satays, fried rice, stingray and beer. yes, beer... shared among 7 people. heyuan said that he was allegic to alcohol or else he would have itchy rashbut in the end, he poured 1/2 a mug of beer and said " well, i guess a few mouth ful wouldn't hurt.." hahaha and when the beer aunty came to collect the jug, she emptied the remaining beer into his mug and we all started laughing.

so, i think the uzapping sessions are no longer useful...

Im back in my movie/tv drama-holic again. Just watch Hula Girls at the Cathay’s Picturehouse for free. Apparently, jas liaise with the cathay over something last year and they have kept her in the loop on cathay updates. Anyway, she was invited to a press release of a show by the Picture House for free as it was their 1st anniversary. And I could tag along!!! Anyway, we were greeted with those Hawaiian flower garlands at the reception and in the lounge, we were given complimentary fruit punch and a glass of stella!!!! I mean, I have always been walking past that lounge and wonder when I will ever be sitting in there. And there I was, standing with jas in the lounge! =)

Anyway, the picturehouse theatre is pretty small compared to the other theatres. The good thing was the chairs – huge, comfy and…. Sofa-ish! Meant for the arty-farty people to watch arty-farty shows. Ok, I really recommend everyone to go watch the shows to be shown at the picturehouse end of this month. Fantastic reviews, award-winning and great trailers. I never ever watch a series of continuous movie trailers with my mouth wide open. Seriously good.

Seriously good movie, I tell you. Hula Girls is a Japanese comedy/ drama based on a true story set in 1965, where a large coal mine was forced to lay off 2000 workers due to decline demand for coal in the world. As such, the coal company decided to sell the business to an entertainment company to build a Hawaiian Centre. Something like a tourist attraction place. As such, they tried to employ females to learn the hula dance but were not supported by the locals. It is about a story how a girl went against her mother, left her family to attend hula dance lessons in the same village. How a professional dancer was forced to teach in the village because other places didn’t accept her profession. How the locals learn to accept the cold hard facts that the coal company could no longer provide employment even though they have worked so hard for them. How sometimes one has to choose between being professional and attending to one’s personal problems. It is a great show and I (and jas) super highly recommend it. Btw, do you know that every action of the hula dance symbolize a word or phrase? In short, the hula dance is something like a sign language apart from the butt shaking. Cool huh.

Ok, another round of movie tmr- 300 with the BE gang!!! Then symphonia’s concert on Sunday.. then music & lyrics with jas and KC under the seventeen mag’s $5 promotion! With freebies.. and hopefully free screening of the Phantom of the Opera full dress rehearsal at the esplanade!!!! =) so exciting!!

Anyway, im back with hana yori dango (meteor garden) season 2 and I cannot stop crying. I don’t know why I like to make myself cry over shows. Maybe because some things in their conversation are things or emotions that I always wanted to express yet I bottle them up. Maybe it is good this way, an outlet for me, in the world of tv.

in psychology class now. and out of boredom, meiyan and i found this newspaper article.

i thank God i hated guys when i was primary 3. PLEASE READ THIS ARTICLE.

http://newpaper.asia1.com.sg/news/story/0,4136,124000,00.html

you will probaby scream like me... and WHY DO THEY HAVE TO USE THE NAME JANE!!!

ok, after twc class.. i had a unexplainable desire for beer. thanks to chinwan cos he was saying he wanna go to the new bar in school- ice cold B. in the end, chinwan, my groupmate raj and i were the only 3 idiots in the bar. Raj was really nice to treat us- 2 pints for chinwan and 1 pint for me. Since he is so nice, i will advertise his business on my blog. Raj owns a business selling limited edition sport shoes from nike, addidas etc.. and he has 3 shops named " LIMITED EDITION" at queensway, pennisular (i think) and heeren level 3. another person i have to salute to... sometimes i wonder why such people are still killing themselves studying in smu.

anyway, i was supposed to be there for 15 minutes because i had a meeting at 3.30pm. then i decided not to make myself appear drunk at a meeting, so i extended my stay till 4pm to enjoy my mr hoe.

draft mr hoe. tasted really light and fruity.. like fruit beer and i drank it like water-- cos i was thirsty. but yes, beer aint thirst-quenching. like what my mum say, beer is "cooling" and she actually encourages me to drink it when im "heaty".. weird parent. another weird thing that my mum did was to inform me that my supply of choya was getting low and pressed me to ask my cousin to buy from dutyfree shops at the airport when they are away--- why is she encouraging me to drink??!! maybe she is stealing my choya.. but can' be. she is allegic to alcohol...... nevertheless, anyone going overseas, please help poor little jayne who has no money currently to travel overseas to buy choya k? i'll pay u back..dead serious..

as usual, i was being random and decided to have dimsum at Victor's kitchen @ sunshine plaza for dinner.. probably the food feature done by vincent ha and wanlyn for CTV is getting into me. amazingly, i got 6 other people - melwyn, jonny sr, natalia, marvin, jansen and aiyu- to go along for our 1 hr dim sum rush. but while we were about to leave the studio, it started rain. so melwyn decided to drive everyone to sunshine plaza. yes, 7 fat pigs squeezing into a jaguar. i can seriously tell you it is my first time i sat in a almost-sports car and it was crawling at a slow speed. like what jonny said " it is a good bonding session.. squeezing at the backseat of a car". haha :) all i remembered was people sqwealling and laughing nonstop to and fro sunshine plaza and smu. on the ride back, i sat in between natalia and jonny and we were talking about uzap. immediately, jonny and natalia started uzapping me... vibrating their bodies..

and this kinda of uzap definitely does not work!

and daryl hates me now because i never jio him out for dim sum.. but you were in class!!! not my fault!

i didnt use uzap last night. haha. as much as i wanted, i reached home at slightly after midnight and was dead tired... all my energy is being zapped away by BE and school work. i wish it can zap my fats away at the same time. after a quick shower, i continued typing my 5000 word personal journal for TWC. i mean, how in the FRIGGING world am i supposed to type 5000 word personl journal on water resource technology?? i have a 10,000 word report on that already! madness i tell you...i was simply adding words with no link to twc in the journal. at 8pm, i was at 1000 words and i told myself that i have to repeat the torturing process another 5 more times. at 11.30pm before i left school, i was at 2100 words and i was freaking out... at 3am, i was at 3500 words. i had never use the word count function so often in my whole entire life... like once every 2 minutes. then, my laptop battery died and i convinced myself to get some sleep.

i had morning class today.. management accounting. had a presentation to do but i hecked it and was religiously typing my report during my break time. but somehow, time past faster than my word count... at the end of the lesson, i managed to increase my word count by only 300 words. time check: 10 minutes to twc class. oh sharks. so everyone left the class and i was left with my MA prof. as i said, my MA prof is really motherly. i think she is very warm, simple and curious to know more about the students. naturally, i chatted with her and when she left, i nearly wanted to slap myself. it was 12pm and i really got to squeeze out a fishball worth of 200 words. with God grace, my final word count was 4100. THANK GOD! i am probably the person with the lowest word count in class.. considering how kiasu the people can be.

so i entered the class and was greeted by my twc project mates. they took a peek at my word count and said something that nearly stimulated the thought of suicide in me.

"eh jayne, kiasu cow* lah!!! 4000 words!! i only have 3500 words!!" whatmore, chinwan only wrote 1700 words.....

**footnote: the origins of KIASU COW. ok, my group consist of 3 indians (2 are international students) and 2 chinese. the international students were so fascinated with singlish such as gan jiong spider that they believe every singlish adjective must be followed with an animal. hence forth, KIASU COW. i dont know why cows are kiasu.. may be because they are the only animals with 4 stomachs...

i was absoluted shocked when meiyan randomly mentioned that my butt is huge yesterday. (dun worry meiyan, i still love you...). like an arrow flying through my confidence and i feel fat. somehow, my mum felt it too.. maybe it is genetics. so this morning after service, my mum decided to realise her desire and bought uzap after 4 mths of bugging me. i was double shocked; one moment my friend said my butt was big (it is genetics again), next moment, i was using the uzap. ok, my maiden try was not very pleasing. my butt and thighs itch now.. i dunno why but i feel like vommitting too. hm.. go jayne, just one week and i will have slimmer butt.

so, last night i went to yazid's (syc) birthday thing at coasta sands pasir ris. i met jieming on the mrt and we reached yazid's chalet at like 10pm. it was great to see the syc people after like 2 years???? but everyone is still as crappy as ever. was talking to jieming on the taxi home and he told me that he is going to europe on a backpacking trip for 6 weeks. 6 weeks leh.... 6 weeks!! i cant even afford staying in anypart of europe for 1 week. anyhow, u have to salute to this guy. he is one hell of a motivated dude (apart from being highly irritating...). he said that he is a poor guy (yeah right, he stays in upp. bukit timah...). but because of this trip, he started saving straight after A levels--- he killed his life by not going out often, not buying clothes, not eating at the army canteen except once... just to save his pay to go europe for 6 weeks. i really have to hand it to him...*salutes* i cannot kill my life for 2 years...

anyway, joe tee said he read my blog entry on my career plan and assured me that i will get married. i turned to him and said " joe, will u marry me?" and he said "no." and referred me to kenji. kenji asked me why im asking him such a question.

me: " because you look like you won't get married by the age of 30. so if im not married then, probably we should help each other."

oh darn.

no more cough mixture...

no more deep sleep till i am forced to wake up by my alarm. actually, i just did last night.

was so darn tired from the day and from wearing my new heels the entire day.

FT was fabulous. david is in the same class as me and yeah, my prof is really inspiring. he is a very motivating talker, encouraging and warm guy. ok, im not in love with him. if i were, david is gay. haha. but anyway, yeah.. after FT, i really wanna be a doctor more than anything now. i guess economics and finance may sound useless to me, but i gotta use what i learn to get extra income, if u know what i mean. so if i were a doctor next time, you have to remember to remind me that this is all God's plan for me.

anyway, my FT prof remembered my name on the 1st lesson. HAHA :)

so he gave us each an raw, uncooked, dirty potato and a straw. he told us to use the straw and thrust through the potato in one attempt and told us it was possible. haha, i failed and so did david. the straw went half-way in to the potato. i should show u guys the pictures next time. but anyway, it looked darn funny. everyone was like.." what's that?". david said it was his new pet potato dog, holding it by the straw. i said it was my new marketing project---- people eat potatoes baked, mashed, fried, cris-cut... i say, we suck potato. afterall, some people say potatoes suck... *cold laughters*

ok, lets see, interview. was good and i think i got the job. just that i have to do some telemarketing which im really really really really.... hate and dread. i mean, TELEMARKETING. omg... help me. but i guess, this is what u have to do in the events line. so yeah. i still dont know how much im getting paid though. and i didnt bothered to ask also. hmm.. whats wrong with me.

emceeing.. im horrible. they said i was not bad. i say i am horrible. but still, the performance was fantastic and yeah, the indonesians are in a very close knitted family. they were friendly, encouraging and i was so happy for them too. i got to watch their play for free but kinda felt bad not buying their ticket in the beginning... if you know what i mean.

all in all, it was a good but tiring day, though someone has to spoil my day again.. but never mind. won't wanna let that person affect me. go jayne, 49 more weeks to go.

im physically tired.

went for singapore street fest press release thingy in the morning at 9 am. thought it was at the cathay. but it was at cineleisure instead. so i cabbed down from the cathay only to find out that it started 1 hr later.

all i knew was that i was running to and fro places today. so tired, feet pain and tmr i have a hectic schedule.

i have FT in the morning.. which means i have to wear formal and NOT be late.
i have lunch after that.
i have my internship interview with the flying dutchman company. which i really wanna get it. and i need to wear formal. and make up.
i have a meeting at 4pm which could either be great or end up nasty.
i have another meeting at 5pm.
i have a rehearsal (Emcee) at 6pm.
i have to emcee at 7pm.
i have to go home after 11pm (earliest) and do my MA project.

i have to die to achieve all these... pray for the best, jayne

i was sitting in IE class. got back my test and i really think econs is not the thing for me. it is interesting, but i just don't have the academic talent for it. nevertheless, i will just keep trying and learn as much as i can from it. hopefully it can be applied in my life. just hopefully.

so sitting in IE class, listening to everyone's career plans. this happened cos we are currently learning about foreign exchange, balance of payments and all the blah blah stuff and it got everyone so interested. btw, the stock market crashed yesterday.. didnt know that cos everyone was so calm about it.. at least in smu (how ironic). oh yeah, everyone's career plans. everyone talked about how they want to work for banks, financial company for their internships, which department they wanna work in.. what they wanna work as... asset management.. management consultant.. risk management.. futures..forwards..

"do you know you earn about $xxxK... wah serious ah!!!.. i wanna work for deloitte.. UBS... can get promoted to.... my friend said that.. my friend's friend said this..."

seriously. it didnt bug me anyway. for once, i wasnt interested to know. ok, it did bug me as to why i wasnt even concern. why am i not as excited to work in banks at all? what bothered me most was whether i will get married. oh yes, you laugh at me. im just thinking as what a normal female human being would be and later on you'll see that my worries are justified.

let's see my plans for the next 10 years.. starting from now.

now to next jan -
BE vicepres and get an internship at the events company. score as well as i can and hopefully my gpa will rise instead of drop. and get a part time job to earn some extra cash.

next jan to june 2008 -
go canada and clear ALL my econs modules and come back as one piece.

june 2006 to aug 2008 -
go for a BSM (business mission trip) to ANYWHERE.. hopefully to New york so i could save on airticket..

aug2008 to dec 2008-
hopefully this would be my last semester in smu. hope to graduate by december.

jan 2009 to dec 2010-
get a job.. sadly in a financial institution and earn enough money to have a savings of $50K

jan 2011- 2015
pray very hard that i can get into graduate medical school in new zealand and my grandaunt sponsor my education and living expenses.

2015-2016
medical house officership

by then i will be like 29/30 year old. darn. i will be attending everyone's wedding but my own.

jayne, 21
smu econs
needs a reboot in her life.
needs to eat and exercise more.
waiting on Him