to be happy?

for my name's sake!!

exam fever

Jaci Velasquez - On My KneesThere are days when I ...

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complain queen. not

complain queen. not

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cool, the exams are over and life is gonna get busier.

i so remember this feeling. dating way back during council days where after exams simply means time to do council work.... till u step down. remember that during the hols, thats when u start making enemies and squabble non-stop day after day.

and to think that u are simply sick of school after the semester, life just get more boring during the holidays that sometimes i think im married to school. zhonghua, nanyang and now.. smu.

dun get me wrong, im not complaining. im just amused by myself. of how much i dislike such a life and yet, i somehow get myself in it over and over again.

oh well. thats me. cant help it actually.

so, i had my last FT class today. we had the formal westen dining at NUS Guild House in Suntec where we learnt how to dine properly. i love the people at my table.. darn funny people. made this whole entire FT dining thing so relax. the other people from other tables were so darn tensed up and so.. formal. geez.

but things got a twist during dessert time. the girl sitting beside me had a phone call and left the room to carry on her conversation. i saw her crying from the reflection of the mirror and then, her friend came in to tell us that her father just passed away. and the entire table fell dead silent.

we all call this as life being cruel. at that moment, you might be laughing your heads off with your friends over a nice meal. not knowing that at that very moment, your love ones are lying on the bed, crying out their last breath.. literally dying to see you one last time. one can hardly fully comprehend her sadness then.

yes, life is cruel. but i guess it is because of its cruelty, thats why we are strong and make us appreciate each other more.. love each other.

so coming back to the situation, though it may sound evil, but im glad she cried. at least she knows she loves her dad and they once spend happy moments as a family. because of this, life aint that cruel cos it cant take those memories away from us.

jayne, 21
smu econs
needs a reboot in her life.
needs to eat and exercise more.
waiting on Him