Sunday, December 10
frustrations.regression. mpw : revealed in reality 1:04 am

i have so many things to say. but im plain lazy.

i just got downgraded for EDA.. from B+ to a B... so much for adjusted grades. and i did not asked for a review.. what the...

just feeling blue, sick and not very hopeful. cos i got a flu, my grades sucks, everyone is overseas and i gotta produce something for campus tv by 1st week of jan. im actually pissed by the allocation of work cos one moment i was away from the discussion doing something urgent for prof rani, when i came back they just pushed the most pressing episode to me. I JUST WANT A BREAK BEFORE SEM 2 STARTS. issit so hard?

and why are my grades so disappointing? so disappointing after so much hardwork? SO MANY sleepless nights, studying, doing projects. why is it still so disappointing. i stopped reading textbooks and started practising this sem. but why???????? i put in more hard work then the A levels... much much more. all i want is to let mum and dad go for ONE dean's list ceremony, something they wanted. but why is it so difficult? why everyone is improving and i am slipping backwards? why some people are slacking yet achieving, and i am slogging and losing? im finding it hard to taking to my stride. too hard.

about her
    jayne, 21
    smu econs
    needs a reboot in her life.
    needs to eat and exercise more.
    waiting on Him

your shout outs

her juke box
    just click the play button to listen

    Backstreet boys - how did i fall in love with you

    tribal jam - remind me

    justin timberlake - my love

    delta goodrem - be strong

    bethany joy lenz - let me fall

    sean paul - give it up (step up OST)

    neyo - so sick

    jojo - little too late

    corrine bailey rae - like a star

her friends